Time of your life

Failing

2007-07-29T02:17:00.000+08:00

Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
Cause I’m out here
On the other side
Of the jet black hotel mirror
And I’m so weak
Is it hard understanding
I’m incomplete
And all their souls are burning
I get weak

Rain

2007-06-10T18:46:00.000+08:00

Breaking Benjamin - Rain

Take a photograph, it'll be the last
not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here
i don't have a past i just have a chance
not a family or honest plea remains to say

rain rain go away come again another day
all the world is waiting for the sun

I'm waiting for the day when the rain stops and the sun shines through again....Right now I'm just feeling empty. On a brighter note, my mahjong luck seems to be improving HA. Evadene...someday again, hun's house...lol. Till then, its back to camp. Addios all you lucky kids out there. Count down - one year a few more months

When we were young

2007-04-01T00:34:00.000+08:00

Back to the days when things work out fine
Once too naive, now just experienced
Guess I've seen enough of this world
I just need once chance to turn the clock back
Can I?

Rain

2007-03-04T16:47:00.000+08:00

Where to go from here now..=/

Rain

2007-02-25T15:17:00.000+08:00

It's raining, the path ahead, muddy.
Slowly moving on, watching puddles form
The wind blows, the air chills
Darken skies lit the path tonight

Friday, apparently. I'm waiting, for doom or not, I'm not sure. Just hope that the bottles still half full and not half empty. Optimism is the only hope I have right now. Just so tired, and damn I'm heading back to that frigging small island again....tonight.

Tonight, I put myself to sleep again.

One boy one girl

2007-02-20T12:34:00.000+08:00

Festive season over, time to head back to that small lil island. Back to the land of rank and social order. 3 weeks and counting, sometimes the wait just gets too long. Where did the years go? I wonder....

Tonight

2007-02-04T14:00:00.002+08:00

I remember the days we spent together
were not enoughand it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

When it hurt so bad sometimes not having you here...
I sing,"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss youI can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

you and me

2007-01-27T01:51:00.000+08:00

Everytime I look into the sky, I see the stars
Then I'll think of you, and how I miss you so
Your smile your hugs your kisses
And I know you'll read this soon someday, so just gonna say I love you so today before I'm gone for the six days
I'll be counting down as usual, and I'm already missing you every minute every moment

One last dance

2007-01-11T10:13:00.000+08:00

And now I leave one path, unto another. I hope times will always stay the same, be as good as it was. My life, my journey, couldnt have been this way without all you people. Friends and family. Really...it's been a good one. And to you my special one, take good care and I'll be missing you alot more than you know. Cheerios, the green men are calling, ciaos people.

2007-01-06T23:42:00.000+08:00

Now you're so far away
And I see our stars is fading
One too many times
Guess it just got tired of waiting around

A new beginning a new start...by take that
Counting down the days

Hey julia

2007-01-04T21:57:00.000+08:00

Are you free tommorow?The day after that perhaps?Or maybe this coming weekend?
Sorry, i've got things on already, friends and all
Oh, so i guess my time is not worth the things you already have on, not worth the sacrifice?Your friends take precedence over me, I guess I'll still be free after all.

You were never really there when I needed you.

Seen

2007-01-04T00:07:00.000+08:00

I can see through those eyes,
All the lies and sympathy
You've never been here
Only a ghost, a whisper
Such a fool I was to believe
That you were always never here

A fresh beginning

2007-01-01T17:11:00.001+08:00

I could use a fresh beginning too, let go of the anger and sorrows of the past and start afresh on a new one. Do not let spite take over you, for it'll only blind you from the truth. New year resolutions, be more patient, understanding, enduring and to be happy go lucky. So I leave a tiring year behind and I sought out for more ahead.

death cab

2006-12-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

Cause behind its door there's nothing to keep my fingers warm,
And all I find are souvenirs from better times.
Before the gleam of your taillights fading east,
To find yourself a better life.

truth

2006-12-29T00:12:00.000+08:00

you can actually obtain water from stone.
The answer is simple, you can't.

Not much sense here but if you look at it in my perspective, it makes sense indeed. Afterall, "you can't" is an answer too right?

Tired, the nights makes me wonder too much. I don't want a path that has uncertainity. I don't want a path that ends before it even starts.

Last Christmas

2006-12-24T01:44:00.000+08:00

It's been a while, since I've had feelings like that. Not too long ago, it was christmas. I remember the festive decorations and the mood in the air. It was cheery, one which induced you to break out into a wide smile and makes you feel that life is so good. Friends, I remember each one of them as they handed out they're presents, or goodwishes for poor blokes like me. Indeed, it was a moment to think about, to forever store in the depths of our brains capacity, sealed with a golden lock. A treasure, always.
And I had always believe, in a friendship, no thanks is ever needed, much less to say for relationships. It is much more deeper than that, much more profound. It's like how I look at you and we both understand each one's thoughts. Perhaps that night, it might have been too harsh and for that I would say sorry. But don't misunderstand what I say to be that I'm not by you, it's rather a more of trying to make you realise or understand perhaps?What ever it is, i'm still there behind your back, for you, for all.

Also, another conversation I've had. "Perhaps we are just living a memory". That all we hope for and want, is based on what we've had before. When change comes, we're not prepared to let go of these memories and embrace new ones. There are many kind of changes. For the good, the better and the worse. I've seen many, I've been through many, and I walk out a little more learned, a little more smarter, a little more cautious. But still the day would always come when I'll think back and say "what if..". I know miracles rarely happen, but I still hope. Cause without hope, there can be nothing.

I know naught what i'm feeling. Is this merely another change in life, or is it something else?Books don't teach me solutions to this. I'm a blind man walking on the tight rope above the ground. The tension,excitment and danger of what lays ahead drowns me. I don't want to take another step forward, I might fall. But reality draws me closer and closer to the rope. I'm eager to find out the outcome, but I fear the consequences. Every action has a reaction that leads to another action. Like a nuclear fusion reaction, sometimes it can go out of control and the damage is devastating. The horror? You ain't seen none of it yet. You're still a child in this world of hunters and beast.

Last christmas, I still recall. So many things, feelings, senses. This year, it has changed. Morph once again into another something. A different memory. I'm walking a path laid with memories, neatly placed along the sides as i saunter down the road. But the further I go, the heavier my footsteps go. Like lead, suddenly the burden becomes so heavy. I take a look around again, and i realise I no longer recognise where I am. On this path of mine, I'm lost.
Slowly by slowly, I took the memories I knew and try to reconstruct at least a familiar road. Laying it out, relishing what's left of it. I'm living my life on memories.

And I hope I get drunk on it

jet

2006-12-20T01:04:00.000+08:00

She's a loaded gun
In my shaking hands
Am I in hell, or the promised land, yeah

And the beat goes on
She knows nothin' is wrong
She goes down, like a setting sun, ow

put your money where your mouth is

the things we never did

2006-12-18T01:17:00.000+08:00

You and me
We sit and talk of friendship then I ask
If you can see
If we could be together, forever
I see the light die in your eyes
Cuz you're scared you'll hurt
So you don't want to try

When love and hate collide

2006-12-07T22:12:00.000+08:00

Got the time, got a chance, gonna make it
Got my hands on your heart gonna take it
All I know I can't fight this way
You could have a change of heart
If you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy about you baby time after time

Grad night

2006-12-03T22:18:00.000+08:00

Another two years over, what more can I say heh...Prom king on the right

after sin

2006-11-23T01:57:00.000+08:00

After sin, there's life
A new beginning to all
A new cycle
Once again, I'm back onto this path
Only this time
Wiser, smarter, and patience

sin

2006-11-13T22:37:00.000+08:00

Hey I say
Go ahead take a taste
What else could go wrong
This is life
One chance, enjoy it
Everyone indulges in me
They all love me
I am immortal for I shall not die
As long as humanity stays
So shall I
I am the world
No one can resist me
Who am I?I am Sin
You just gotta love me
The price for me is your soul I shall consume
Who am I?I am your Sin

gates

2006-11-10T01:55:00.000+08:00

I wonder where you are
I wonder what you're thinking of tonight
I wonder
Maybe you're alone
Maybe you've been crying just like me
I wonder

when the words don't come out

2006-11-07T21:52:00.000+08:00

Y'know, sometimes theres a situation in which you're forced to take a particular choice. When things you wanna say can and will be turned against you, but yet, you just cant help the way it is.
A fairy tale. I'm tired, it's time I should take a break. Be happy. After all, happiness is subjective aint it.

its all the same

2006-11-06T19:38:00.000+08:00

Give me back my point of view
Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Maybe all we need is time
Just food for thought, when you give so much to a point that one day, you realise you've nothing more to give, what, will you do then?I wonder...

Eidolon

2006-10-30T22:48:00.000+08:00

On a stage, the world his own to make
A mask in front a fortress behind
To entertain, with a dance and a play
With a mask he hides all emotions
Walls of steel he made, a fortress so strong
Should ever the mask fail, will the fortress come
Hypocrites, critics all here for the same reason
Never will they understand the emotions so real
But did he not know, that even fortresses can fall?

See right through those lying eyes

i'd say otherwise

2006-10-26T23:53:00.000+08:00

The reason you never cross my mind

is because you're always on my mind.

The reason why I don't like you

is because I love you.

The reason I don't want you

is because I need you.

The reason I wouldn't cry if you left

is because I would die if you left.

The reason I wouldn't live for you

is because I would die for you.

The reason why I'm not willing to do

anything foryou

is because I would do everything for you.

The reason I chose my life

is because YOU ARE MY LIFE

Bed of roses

2006-10-20T21:23:00.000+08:00

Love’s the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
Where angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom
The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

Where did i go wrong?

2006-10-18T20:41:00.000+08:00

Where did I go wrong?
What did I do?
I feel so lost, on this lonely road
Where do I turn?
To whom shall I seek shelter
To cover me from the storm
Run, is all I am doing
Admist the confusion and craze
Where are you?

Come to Me come to Me
I am here always
With arms wide open
I shall shelter you
From the wind and rain
When you tire I shall be your strength
Admist the confusion and craze
I am here....always

Time of your life

2006-10-12T22:44:00.000+08:00

18 years and still going, what more can i say. Once again it's back to the cross roads. Friends and mates all depart to make way for new ones. As we turn around and look back and smile at the memories that we have, thats what will last. The laughter the joy the fun the sadness the scoldings and most of all, the friendship.
They say to write something nice, but I cant because words cant describe a friendship, only feelings can.

long journey into the night

2006-09-25T21:39:00.000+08:00

as it is, i will always be a stranger who never really feels at home, who does not really want is not really wanted, who can never belong, who must always be a little in love with death.

like a phantom within the silhouette, far from all that was once were, time has done its toll , like a stranger he's so familiar, yet his shadow i could never grasp, a little here a little there.

dreaming, not keeping lookout, feeling alone, and above, and apart, watching the dawn creep like a painted dream over the sky and sea which slept together. then the moment of ecstatic freedom came....

....like a saint's vision of beatitude. like the veil of things as they seem drawn back by an unseen hand. for a second there is meaning! then the hand lets the veil fall and you are alone, lost in the fog again, and you stumble on toward nowhere.

2006-09-14T20:50:00.000+08:00

my shoulders are heavy, i can't take the weight which seems to increase with each and every step. Where were the days when everything was so much better?Where have they ran to?

Never before have I seen you look so blue
I can't find a cure and nothing comforts you
The light at the end of the tunnel
Doesn't shine at the end of the day

Everytime you cry
Save up all your tears
I will be your rainbow
When they disappear
Wash away the pain
'Til you smile again
I will be the laughter in your eyes
Every time you cry

like water like stone

2006-09-10T00:12:00.000+08:00

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too

And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone...

2006-09-09T02:05:00.000+08:00

aint it funny the way the mind works. contadiction. I need a break from all this shit

At the beginning

2006-09-04T20:40:00.000+08:00

And life is a road
and I wanna to keep going
love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
life is a road
now and forever
wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
in the end I wanna be standing
at the beginning with you

Do you remember the first time we met?
When we were all strangers in class
Do you remember the fun we shared?
When we all became friends
Do you remember the bonds we've had?
When we knew each other closer
Do you?

Like a boat, im slowly drifting
My cries go unnoticed

just another day

2006-08-24T23:17:00.000+08:00

Once upon a time not so long ago, there lived a little boy. With hopes and dreams he entered the world, with friends all around. Just like a little boy, he had dreams and hopes. At first he thought he could change the world. Let them change so he thought.
As he grew older and wiser, he knew now that he couldn't change the world. For to the world, he was just another inhabitant, small and insignificant. It's alright he said to himself, I'll change those around me.
Years went by and wiser still he grew. As he watched the world change, as sure as night comes with day, he knew he had failed. He couldnt change them at all. Sadly he watched his friends change a little more each day, one by one. Each venturing on their own paths. Separation, through distance and people. And so he learnt that the only change he could ever bring about was to change himself.
Not so long a time ago, everything seemed so perfect. When friendships were forged that seemed unbreakable. Now with the errosion of the winds of time, the chains of friendship are starting to rust. How this little boy wished he had taken better care, as he watches on helplessly, watching the chains fade to dust.
To turn back time, just once, if only. Silence he kept as he watched the world unfold around him. Even as he watched on, he knew that he was a little boy no more, even he had changed for better or worse. Yet that little boy so young and naive still lived within, one day perhaps.

And time keeps slipping away
And time will turn to grey
And time will be the one who holds you down

If only you could take a step back to see the distance, what if that little boy could change no more?

how to be dead

2006-08-21T22:02:00.000+08:00

Please don't go crazy if I tell you the truth
No you don't know what happened and you never will
If you don't listen to me while I talk to the wall
This blanket is freezing, it's been out in the hall
Where you've had me for hours til i'm sure what I want
But darlin' I want the same thing that I wanted before
So sweetheart tell me what's up, I won't stop. No way.
Please keep your hands down and stop raising your voice
It's hardly what i'd be doing if you gave me a choice
It's a simple suggestion, can you give me some time?
So just say yes or no, why can't you shoulder the blame?
Cos' both my shoulders are heavy from the weight of us both
You're a big boy now so let's not talk about growth
You've not heard a single word I have said. Oh my God.

Please take it easy, it can't all be my fault
I haven't made half the mistakes that you've listed so far
Baby let me explain something, it's all down to drugs
At least I remember taking them and not a lot else
It seems i've stepped over lines you've drawn again and again
But if the ecstacy's in the wit is definately out
Doctor Jekyll is wrestling Hyde for my pride

I'm a gemini

2006-08-15T20:01:00.000+08:00

Gemini

Turn ons

Gemini is a highly intellectual and versatile person. If you have a Geminipartner you have to match your wits with his wits to keep the zing in therelation. They want to be mentally stimulated so you have to be good inconversing. Your sense of humor will get you a permanent residence place in theheart of a Gemini. Be more communicative with them and if you are good in thisthen you will never know how hours pass by with you holding each other`s hand.

Turn offs

Gemini`s like to do many things at the same time so if unfortunately you are thetypes who is looking for stability you may get disappointed. Do not hold back aGemini or you may lose him, as they are restless and need change in lifeconstantly. You should try to adopt yourself with the ever-changing Gemini.Orthodox or conservative old fashion ideas are no-no in their dictionary. Changewith the ever-changing Gemini and do not flow against the current.

Ok might sound general but this seems to say alot..lol

sailing life away

2006-08-13T20:59:00.000+08:00

I am sailing, I am sailing.
home again, 'cross the sea.
I am sailing stormy waters

I am flying, I am flying
Like a bird 'cross the sky
I am flying, passing high clouds

Can you hear me, can you hear me
through the dark night far away
I am dying, forever trying

We are sailing, we are sailing
Home again 'cross the sea
We are sailing stormy waters
To be near you, to be free

The poet

2006-08-09T00:10:00.000+08:00

Out of space
Out of time

My chemical romance

2006-07-29T21:45:00.000+08:00

I wish, for once to hear a praise
Not to be discouraged
I wish, for once to feel the warmth of a home
Not just a house to live
I wish, for once you would be proud
Not a disgrace
I wish, that maybe things were different
I wish, that maybe I could just be a little smarter
How I wish.
But wishes don't come true
Do they?

Maybe I'm just a fool to believe

countdown

2006-07-15T21:25:00.000+08:00

You can kill a man with guns, knives and many other weapons. But the only way to kill his heart is with words.

2006-07-09T23:21:00.000+08:00

It's the heart, afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream, afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who wont be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dyin'
That never learns to live

Is it that my soul will never learn to soar?

M.I.A

2006-06-22T19:46:00.000+08:00

Staring at the carnage,
praying that the sun will never rise.
Living another day in disguise.
These feelings cant be right,
lend me your courage to stand up and fight,

It's no fun but I've been here before.
Far from home and I'm fighting your war.
(Not the way I pictured this, I wanted better things)
Some are scared, others killing for fun,
I shot a mother right in front of her son.
(Take this from my consciousness and please erase my dreams)

Fight for honor, fight for your life.
Pray to God that our side is right.
Though we won but still we lose,
until I make it home to you.
I see our mothers filled with tears
Grew up so fast where did those years go?
Memories wont let you cry unless i don't return tonight.

Watching the death toll rise wondering how im alive.
Strangers blood on my hands, shot all i can.
There are no silent nights watching your brothers all die
To destroy all their plans with no thought of me.

Walk the city lonely, memories that haunt are passing by.
A murderer walks your streets tonight.
Forgive me for my crimes.
Don't forget that I was so young,
Fought so scared, in the name of God and Country.

2006-06-13T00:40:00.000+08:00

You know, I've seen a lot of what the world can do
And it’s breakin' my heart in two
'Cause I never want to see you sad girl
Don't be a bad girl

But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
Just remember there’s a lot of bad and beware

So much has happened in a year, i guess its time to put down everything else and study. Met up with a few 05 mates and boy i must say its good to catch up with them again as we talked crapped till daylight faded into the night. One day, perhaps we shall stay over someplace eh? When all these is over...yea. On a brighter note, WORLD CUP *beams* yea don't we all enjoy some good soccer =P.

I guess its for the good and out there in this big big world i hope you are finding your happiness and always around with a smile for all.

"Promise me, son, not to do the things I've done.
Walk away from trouble if you can.
Now, it don't mean you're weak if you turn the other cheek.
I hope you're old enough to understand:
Son, you don't have to fight to be a man."

"I promised you, Dad, not to do the things you've done.
I'll walk away from trouble if I can.
Now please don't think I'm weak, I couldn't turn the other cheek,
And papa, I sure hope you understand:
Sometimes you gotta fight when you're a man."

Sometimes...sometimes we gotta fight to be our own man...can we?or rather will we?

long long time ago

2006-05-31T19:33:00.000+08:00

Long long time ago, I can still remember
How the music used to make me smile.

When my dreams were still bold
I made promises I thought I could keep
I had dreams, dreams to change the world
Now, I know more then ever

As the years past, my fire dimmed
My promises I made I now could not keep
Old and wise, that's what I am
Now I dream, only to change myself and not the world

Once, I hear the music loud and clear
As time fades away into nothingness, the music dims
The melody burns away into the night
So long ago, the music lost its flight

Yea I can only look back and think, thats what I'm good for. Things have changed, so much. All around me, I see people I once knew, and now I know them not at all. Then again, I turn around to see myself. In the mirror I ask, who's that I see?

soundtrack

2006-05-25T20:07:00.000+08:00

Aint it funny how humans are so ironical. So many times we say something but we never really mean what we said. Contradictory. For that we suffer in silence, behind the tall towers we have built with our own hands. And after that we sought to bring it down again. In the process we get hurt, torn apart, as we tear through ourselves without even realising it. Like pigs to the slaughter, no matter how hard we try to run and hide, eventually it'll hold us within its grip.
And so they thought they were young. They were everything. To them, they were the authority. Little do the know they were so wrong. And these mistakes eventually took away their heart a lil' by lil'. Brought them crashing down to earth. Like arrows straight to the heart, their flamed burned out. Darkness, thats all they are left to see.
Emo?yes, so what.

Far past these roads there is a place
Where all our precious dreams remain
Someday I know I'll find a way
To keep myself from holding on

longest story

2006-05-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

Right outside these four high walls
Are dreams of thousands
One day I shall find the strength to let go
To break my way through to the other side

Beast and the harlot

2006-05-06T01:38:00.000+08:00

http://colinandkero.blogspot.com/

Hot topic of the month. The blog of a gay couple here in Singapore. Personally, i do not have a problem with them being gay or what shit, but as long as they keep their stuff to themselves I'm fine with it. Yet they have to set up a blog and publish about their daily life. Reading the damn thing just makes me shiver. Problem one, they have an absolutely detestable command of the english language, even for singlish.

his msg was "tinkin of u baby.. muackz!" i dun mean i wan u all flirt wif me la.. i wan u all come ms help me leh.. i wan OMOKS! wooden table!! and monster cards!!! u got.. gif me okay? *blinks* .

Summarised my reaction in 3 words. W-T-H . Seriously these kinda bloggers ought to be banished from the face of the earth. I'm not being harsh but the way they put their words across is just a pure insult to english, and not to mention even singlish. KEKEKEXXXX.
Problem number two, you guys are just creating the trouble for yourself. Yes perhaps the flamers ought to tone down a little, but don't give us the crap that you do not know the blog would become that famous. Perhaps I should remind you, blogs are published online unless you make them private, people go online, people can access your blog. They READ YOUR DAMN BLOG. Whats the excuse you will give now, I'm sure you guys are not unthinking creatures are you. Besides this, knowing that society is still conservative, all the more should you two try to keep things down a little. Use a brain power would you, it's like a murderer publishing his exact location to everyone. You have only yourself to blame for the flamers you bring to your blog.
Quoting from your blog i dont change for any tom, dick, henry, understand here, the world dont revolve around you.
do get prepared to see homosexuals kissin in the public. cos i have friends tat they would kiss in public as and when they have the urge to, and there you got, problem number three. Keep your love private please. If people already disapprove of others making out in public, what more of you guys. I'm not saying you guys shouldn't but please, the world aint revolving round you. Get that fact into your head.
I honestly don't understand why people do things that attract attention to themselves like it or not. A blog, WOW, only my friends will read it. Ya right, get a life man. To summarise, i do not imply that being gay is wrong, but get the facts right. The world still hasn't made a place for you yet, so just take your life and keep it to yourself will ya?

2006-04-27T22:52:00.000+08:00

So many paths that we can take
To bring us to our destiny
Gaze up at the stars
And see if you can point me out.

Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
These are the best days of our lives
The only thing that matters is just following your heart
And eventually, you'll finally get it right.

One word...Reminisce

Someday i'll be saturday night

2006-04-14T01:37:00.000+08:00

Take a look around
All i see are walls
And all you ever did was to blame
To take me down
Call me weak
Brought me up just to crash it all down
You say you'd understand
But you don't see it do you
My life a jigsaw puzzle
You took a piece away
Now i'll never be complete
I've tried to say sorry
But the words dont come out right
You don't hear my story
I said im sorry
I've tried to change
But all i've did was to make things the same
Like a knife
You tore through
Do you see the pain?
Do you see my blood?
Here i am bleeding
Now i know
I must be strong
Stand and survive alone
Here i am on the edge
One more step forward

Someday i'll be saturday night..faith, im losing it. Dont always judge others, judge yourself first.

in between

2006-04-04T22:37:00.000+08:00

Read between the lines, sometimes you'll see more of the story then you were meant to....

The great love I have declared I have for you
is gone, and I find my dislike for you
increases every day. When I see you
I do not even like your appearance.
The one thing I want to do is to
look the other way. I never wanted to
marry you. Our last conversation
was very dull and in no way has
made me anxious to see you again.
You only think of yourself.
If we were married, I know that I would find
life very difficult, and I would have no
pleasure in living with you. I have a heart
to give, but it is not a heart
I want to give to you. No one is more
demanding or selfish than you, and less
able to care for me and be of help.
I sincerely want you to understand that
I speak the truth. You will do me a favor
if you consider this the end. Do not try
to answer this. Your letters are full of
things that do not interest me. You have no
true concern for me. Good bye. Believe me
I do not care for you.Please do not think
I am still your loving friend.

Dance with me

2006-04-02T21:55:00.000+08:00

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down
Don't dance so fast
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift.... Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over

random

2006-03-25T00:11:00.000+08:00

He stares ahead, eyes bloodshot, brows knotted together as sweat drips down his forehead. Back pressed against the dirt stained wall he waits anxiously, as time seems to stand still. Slowly, bit by bit, light fades to darkness, as he became one with the shadows. Swiftly and silently he moved into action. One shot one hit and thats all he got. His eyes, a wonderfully addictive look of terror, his face a grimace of sheer determination.
One swipe across the delicate throat as blood gushed out in a fountain. A look of surprise, to terror, sudden realisation and then he looked no more. His eyes, cold and hard he let the body slide to the ground. Aged thirteen, once he was so innocent.

cabby fare

2006-03-17T22:57:00.000+08:00

I've taken the ride too far
Think its time i got off the cab
Cause the fares getting too heavy
Is it a price i can pay?

Gotta check my wallet first

in memory of

2006-03-12T13:51:00.000+08:00

Straight ahead I see the reflection, dead eyes stare back into me. One which pleads for sanity, hunger for escape, eyes that seem so desperate. This is what I've become, a man with nothing left but shreds of his soul. Even the mirror reflects emptiness, not even a drop of sympathy. Still the disintegration goes on, taking whats left of my humanity. Now I'm nothing more then just a woodblock, once of life, now i reek of death. Once, love was such a wonderful feeling, now I can't remember how it feels like..to be love, or even..to love. My feelings are void. The walls I've build have shut me in so tight, that I suffocated, so tight that it cut me off completely, my mighty wall. No more shall I feel no more shall I see no more shall I hear. I am just what I am now. Even the mirrors on the wall jeer at me, laughing at my plight. My eyes once filled with vibrant colours and eagerness, now, it's only but a dead stare. I've tried to break the wall to find the colours again but every minutes brings more agony. I am lost, lost too deep in my own sorrows. A pool a dark swirly liquid that pulls me further down the bottomless pit. I thought I had found love within again! But it only slipped through my fingers. No, its too late, to find what I've lost, what I need. I am shattered, like shards of mirror, even a thousand man cannot put together. Broken pieces lying over the floor, as i watch myself through my eyes, I pull away in terror. I am broken, no longer human.

Facils over rockefella's over, the best times of my life over in these few weeks. I've truly enjoyed them, and to Random, even though we've made some mistakes and our performance aint true blue great, remember the times of fun we had the anxiety the laughter. Music is after all about enjoying, and you guys have given me much to remember about. Facils, even though everything was kinda rush and stuff it still has been a great experience. Now, its back to studies...cheers people.

i've

2006-03-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

I've learned....That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.
I've learned.And I've learned it the hard way

I'm like the moon, the darker side you turn to when you're down
When the sun rises, the moon is forgotten
Left alone in its own misery and loneliness
Only when darkness arises, then shall it reveal.....

Am i only following along blindfolded?- emplified sorrows

canon in d

2006-02-27T23:41:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kP-CoQiiTAU&search=guitar%20solo
my dream

i aint no superman

2006-02-24T21:51:00.000+08:00

If I go crazy then will you still call me Superman
If I'm alive and well, will you be there holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with my superhuman might
Kryptonite

You called me strong, you called me weak
But still your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times I never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your headIf not for me then you would be dead
I picked you up and put you back on solid ground

maggi mee

2006-02-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

These four walls are closin' more every day
and I'm dying inside
and nobody knows it but me
like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
and I'm cryin' inside
and nobody knows it but me

New change new life

2006-02-19T23:11:00.000+08:00

They said dont fall too deep but somehow the words dont enter
Everytime it gets deeper
Till it drowns out everything

Same game
Same rules
Same ending